If you have nothing to say, say it !

"Travel light". This advice pretty much embodies all the Zen philosophy. At least in my humble understanding.

It feels like, more and more, that contentment for the mind is much like strength for the muscles. Some people have it naturally, but most of people have to exercise to have it. It just does not happen by itself.

As physical exercise is to give physical strength to the muscles, meditation is to give contentment to the mind. As without exercise the muscle stays weak, without meditation the mind is unable to find contentment.

The hardest thing in Buddhism practice is to develop love for all things, all animated and inanimate beings. Not only things but events too. Maybe the difficulty of doing so is the reason why Zen does not focus much on Love. Zen focus on training the mind off distractions, attachments, addictions, delusions, for suffering to unfold as Love in the form of gratitude by itself.

The funny thing to me is that in the end, I must find gratefulness to the same distractions, attachments, addictions and delusions, to the suffering that I am trying to get rid of. It is hard to me to accept that suffering is generated only by the lack of gratitude. Maybe because I am not grateful (?)

Can the whole Universe stay the same when only one sole individual change, seen that every individual is the center and source of the whole Universe?

It feels sometimes to me that in life there are only two things: suffering and unconditional gratitude. Nothing else. So far, it hasn't mattered how much I have had, or who I have been as a measure of personal fulfillment. All it has mattered is how grateful or ungrateful I have been.

These are very good news. Because I realize that I don't have much control over Life, but I can for sure control how grateful I am to Life.

Tired of suffering

I am tired of suffering, exhausted. The only way I see of not suffering anymore is growing up. The only way for me to grow up, for being an adult already, is to outgrow myself. To outgrow myself as a man, I have to reborn as the Buddha I am, as every being is Buddha.

All I am is a result of my thought and emotions. Thoughts and emotions are always generated from false premises or biased principles. Therefore, what I am as a person is not real. If I am not real, my suffering is not real.